A List of Things I Thought I Would Never Get Through and Did.

As my birthday approaches (I’m going to be 30!), I have a list of things I thought I would NEVER get through and I did! I’ll keep it small but detailed.

• I thought I would NEVER graduate. I mean it took me forever. Self supported, full time, multiple job having person, I just thought that I would never get to having a degree. Well it came, it was monumental, and a very proud moment in my life, and now I’m on the MBA venture (I am now having doubts of finishing that! HA!)
• I thought I would NEVER fall in love. This was my 18 year old naive self. I had declared myself Ice Queen (Elsa did not have anything on me), and I planned on staying that way, that way I couldn’t get hurt right? Right?! Wrong. Girl meets boy. Girl falls for boy. Love happened and more than a few times! I look forward to loving some wonderful man again.
• I thought I would NEVER survive childbirth. I barely did according to my cousin lol!  I survived and surprisingly cannot remember that pain just that I made some really ugly faces and loud screams when it was time for my daughter to come in the world.
• I thought I would never find my spirituality. God has a funny way of tapping you on the shoulder (pregnancy), and saying hey! You need me to find your purpose young lady. My old life is non-existent. My new life has so much meaning and purpose. I am intentional about all that I do!
• I thought I would never be nurturing. You know I was the Ice Queen after all, well just call me Queen Nurturer. I love it. I can pour my love into something (all I ever wanted to do, even in during my Ice Queen reign). No longer am I an undercover lover, I’m out and proud! My child and how I love on my friends and family is a direct result of my love overflowing.

Those are just some of the things I thought I could not overcome. What about you?

My New Normal

 

My life has been taken over by this little person, every inch of it. From the moment I awake with you in my arms, my life is all about you. Tonight you sleep in your crib, and I make the most of it. Most times it’s me straightening up my home and I find that in every room, there are reminants of you.

In the living room I pick up mounds of baby toys and put them in their place. I straighten out the kitchen and your clean bottles are on the drying rack, and baby food is proudly on display. I go to the bathroom, where my walk-in closet is and as I pass, I see your bouncer and bath toys. In my closet is a space, designated just for you.

Our room has your  swing and your crib and your changing table. I find there are always reminders that you are in my life. The car seat in my car, the emergency diapers, car toys, and stroller are all reminders of you. I even find when I am looking in my purse, a bow, some emergency wipes and a diaper are in tow. It’s amazing to me, that you have not only emcompassed my heart, but you have encompassed my life. Your Mother has enjoyed all 8 plus months of your life and I as I have said countless times am overjoyed, privilaged and honored to spend the rest of my days with you as your Mom. I love you booger bear.