Message to my beautiful young women

 

 

You have to know your worth, whether others are convinced you have any or not. If I placed my worth in the hands of other people and how they decided to view me, I would be on some shaky ground. Luckily, my worth is not placed in the hands of man, but God himself and if it was not for his grace, I would not be who I am and what I am today.

As individuals, we are valuable and all have purpose in our lives whether a person decides you are valuable or not. We typically seek acceptance from others and sometimes validation, and that can create people bondage. What if they do not like me? I wonder if they will be accepting of me despite if I have flaws or fail. You cannot place your self confidence in any other persons hands but God. By focusing on his will  and how he desires your life to be designed, you could never fail. God does not promise that there will not be trials and tribulations but he encourages us to lean into him in these times. Romans 8:28 teaches us that ALL(good and bad) things works together for the GOOD for those (yes even you!) according to HIS purpose. Not a man you desire to like you, not your boss for a promotion, but God. It takes the pressure off of trying to become what someone else would think we would need to be. You have a father, his name is God, he has a son named Jesus and those are the only two you need to seek.

As a wonderful blogger stated in her blog unashamed growth, “Don’t ever argue with someone over your worth. Don’t ever try to work to show someone you are worth love, respect, honor, or good things… God clearly believes in his work. Be confident in who you were created an the benefits that come along with it.”

So put your efforts into getting to know God and his Son, there is nothing but peace and prosperity on this side of eternity. Redirect your focus.  I hope this can encourage and benefit some person out there.

 

 

 

 

 

I’m an Aunt…again!

The 3rd times a charm!

That is for sure! This weekend, I got the prestigious honor of being there when my oldest brothers 1st child was born. I was so excited. I mean, life is truly amazing. Kayla Michelle Davis was born around 5pm on 08/11/13, weighing 8lbs 13oz and being 22 inches long! She is a pretty little girl, and the new parents couldn’t be any happier. I have a niece (4) and a nephew(1) by my younger brother.

I pretty much spent the weekend doing that and being a complete bum inside the house. I occasionally made up my mind to go somewhere, but ended up finishing my Amazon Prime Borrowed book on my kindle and relaxing. Sometimes after waking up at 5am non-stop and going to be late, can take a toll.

Some other things I want to address are on the emotional side. I am typically the type to be shy to reveal my real feelings about things, due to them largely being misinterpreted. I am a very passionate being, and I tend to not speak up at opportune times and sometimes that has a negative effect in my personal life. It’s a defense mechanism I will be working on for my entire life. It took me a while to not be a quiet being (I’m loud and funny now) Being an adult and mature. If I am interested in you, then I somewhere somehow deeply believe in you. It will show and I will even tell you so in so many ways. However, that is not to be regarded as being weak. If I feel, or see that something is wrong, or I do not feel is right, then, I will ask questions. Now it will not be an FBI interrogation, however, I will be direct. Direct is what I do very well. It cut’s out the possibility of deflection.

I just want people to understand that if I am passionate about you, I will have many questions for you regarding your life, because I am interested. My dating life is a bit of a comedy at the moment, and I am not getting what I require from people. In order for me to truly get what I want, I have to REQUIRE it from someone. I use to think that my requirements did not have to be stated. Unfortunately the way these guys are set up, you do. So at the moment.

I like someone, I am unsure of his intentions and I am afraid to ask. (Cue that shy introverted girl) Chances are I know it is going to be one of those, “I’m not where I want to be” speeches, because I have the most impeccable way of meeting and liking the right guy at the WRONG time in his life. When are you dimwits going to realize that you will forever be working on yourselves, that that is a life-long process! I am a person wants you for your intellectual worth not what state you are in materialistically, I evidently made that assessment when I first got to know you. I see things like this: even when my physical, and your physical attributes wear away we still have a mental connection and have that person you can talk to about anything, about everything. I’m looking at you for your worth, not what you are currently worth!  You say you want success, well, so do I. You aren’t where you want to be career – wise, financially. Hello! Me too! We are all getting there or working on making our lives more enriched. Why can’t we cake this vertical climb together? I truly don’t get it. That will forever baffle me. I Hope that works out for you and if it does, great. But I’m over here believing in you being your biggest cheerleader and you don’t seem to see me. I am invisible. Thanks for all of your consideration of my awesomeness. I just hope one day it seriously is worth something to someone other than myself, and I truly have the treatment (basics) that I desire. Nothing irrational, just simple and for me kind of thing. Can you tell I am frustrated? I am. I am sure dating will get better, but for now it is not.

Friday Faves

I am taking a page from one of my blogger friends book, thedancingrunner and listing some favorites or things I want.

For starters, I want this coffee mug!

 

 

It’s so edgy. Some purchases I made recently, are shoes. I have plenty of flats and shoes for outside of work, but the majority of my work shoes are torn and tattered. So I went to the clearance section of Target and copped these two bad boys.

 

 

I live for the clearance/sales at Target. I never buy anything full price unless it speaks to me.
Today I am running on approximately 5 hours of sleep, and I have a session with my trainer. O_O. Wish me luck. I will probably go straight to bed after that! Ha! For anyone who has lost a significant amount of weight, I would like to ask you, do you have a hard time accepting the reality that you are actually achieving your goal, or surpassing it? ,That is currently happening to me. I look in the mirror and I expect to see what I saw in January. Instead I see my physique taking on a more athletic tone, and it’s amazing and hard to really believe that this is my body in metamorphosis. It inspires me to push myself harder to see what else will get a little tighter, or what else will manifest. Hopefully, I don’t sound crazy, but this is truly an experience.

In other fitness news, I would like to get my running mojo back and run more than 3 miles. I feel like my knee is up for it and I would like to push myself to run a 10k. I used to love running, and it was therapy to hear my breath, my feet hit the pavement, and feel my heart beating at a fast, but steady rate. So I found a training schedule for beginners on Women’s Health. They currently have a 10k that is going to be run throughout the country. Here is there training schedule for beginners.:

 

This is very do-able! Shout out to all my running fanatics! You inspire me. Well, Happy Friday everyone!

 

Happy Hump Day!

Ain’t nobody Humpin around!

Corny? Yes. Funny? Absolutely! Happy Wednesday everyone! Today is a very special day for all my runners out there. Happy National Runners day! I might not be able to run very far thanks to my knee but I am going to put for the effort to run at least 800 meters before I hop on my bike today.

Anyone else running today? It does not matter how fast or slow, expert or novice that you are, just run! There are no requirements to it besides that!

Yesterday, I biked around my neighborhood for a good 40 minutes until it was dark and it was fun! I burned 385 calories and the breeze in the evening was marvelous. Living in Houston is like living in an steel hot box sometimes and the heat will make you avoid any outdoor activities at all costs. Humidity will not be a factor in my life! I am also re-re-adjusting my workout schedule yet again due to this awful rotation schedule my job has me and my other co-workers on. Just as soon as I get into the groove of a schedule, I am uprooted and thrown another curve ball. It’s not bad, but the 1st week can be rough. I now work a later shift so I choose to workout after work. I will miss my crazy lady and pilates classes for a month. 😦 Don’t worry I will be here next month to oblige (Who uses that word?! Apparently a 28 year old studying for the GMAT does). Any who, I plan on riding my bike tonight, shopping for food, and studying. I have not studied for a full hour since Friday. Terrible!

GMAT Adventures

 

Yaaaaayyyy I’m going to take the GMAT!

*record scratch* No. I am not elated, I am currently reviewing what I am up against and I am now realizing. I should have started studying MONTHS ago. I plan on taking the GMAT sometime at the end of next month (AHHH!) I can get with reading and comprehension, those have been my strong subjects throughout my life, but the Quantitative portion of this test. Jesus, Allah, and Jehovah, help me! I have not seen an integer since sophomore year in college, and an isosceles triangle since the early 2000’s. I am rusty. I know with a little patience and hours of crunching I can wing it. I am excited to embark on this post graduate trek, HOWEVER, I believe that this entrance test is pure malarkey. I guess my student loan debt receipt and my diploma is not enough to get me into grad school.

Oh wells, many before me have had to take this test, and I have asked a few friends and acquaintances how do they feel about the GMAT? A lot of it was not that positive. One person even looked at me like I had 6 heads when I asked them about their experience. One reason a friend gave me is that it is difficult, because the test adapts to you (making it difficult to prepare and study) two because it’s about stuff we will never in life get to use unless we are an engineer, biochemist, or an architect. I look forward to spending the 250.00 and I better pass with flying colors, because Sallie Mae has a death grip hold on my bank account. I cannot afford to take this test this year again. So wish me luck!!

*disclaimer I am not usually this cynical but based on what I am reviewing I feel overwhelmed*

Weekend and such

I have started off my new year a-okay. I have pretty much booked some vacation with the girls at the beginning of March and in the Middle I plan to go to Italy! Milan for a fact! I guess I am really living up to the name jet-setter. I need to schedule in some “Me” time. I am a people pleaser by default. It is my nature, that sometimes I forget about me! Well I happened to remember myself this weekend, and I plan on just relaxing with My “Gee-boo” (Gizmo my dog) for a couple of hours. I know it does not sound like enough, but the way my schedule is set up, it is all I have. I plan on also using this fabulous gym in Katy as well as my Apartments gym, because I plan on remaining fit for 2013. Here are some of the recent items I purchased (DARN ONLINE SHOPPING!!)

Button Trimmed Top from The Limited for 6.99!

 

Drew Tab-Waist Cuffed Ankle Pants        

Metallic Zigzag Sweater 16.99! On sale at The Limited!

Michael Kors bag, but with the MK’s on it.

 

 

Healing, it is a slow process

I am not one to forgive easily. I have been known to harbor feelings of hurt. My way of dealing with it, is to either avoid the person or not really treat them with respect. I generally am not mean, but I do not go out of my way to be kind to them. I am not really careful with how I speak to them and I am not really tolerable of any of their quirks, or urge for me to respect them. People on the outside think I am absolutely rude capital b-word to these people, but honestly it is my way of dealing with the pain they inflicted on me. I am only typing this to offer an explanation for my non- courteous behavior. Now I know my behavior towards people like this is not correct, but healing is a slow process. I will forgive the person. It will not be an overnight process. Sometimes outsiders see the behavior and may have a connection to the one that offended me. They might find it offensive. It probably is.

Let me just say it isn’t some oh…. this person hurt my feelings or made me mad that makes it hard to forgive them. It was the fact that I was vulnerable and I needed them, and they mistreated me.  So forgive me if I am a little stand -offish to those who have inflicted deep mental anguish you can’t ever forget, but I want to forgive and get to the happiness in store, there is just a process that has to happen and that is not overnight. Just this year I have decided to forgive someone close to me for the things I was put through.  The healing starts now. Those who I understandably know hurts them to see two people they love have a disagreement like me and the offender do, just need to know that this is something they cannot fix, nor intervene on, they just need to let the process happen. It is best for my relationship with the offender and the ones that love me. Pain is a horrible feeling especially intangible pain. Healing is slow, and I am not perfect nor have claimed to be, I just need my loved ones to understand not everything needs a cape with extra starch to intervene.

{Insert Frustration Here}

 

These past few weeks have been trying, for sure. I moved and I attempted to switch my services from one apartment to another. Simple right? Boy was I ever so wrong. I transferred on a friday and arranged to have Comcast come out on a Weds to install my services. When I call to confirm my appointment, they decide that they were going to do it at an inconvenient time. I inform the company that because I work  during the day a day appointment would not work. So they cancel my order (I had no clue they did this) I call back to see if they have a weekend appointment. They inform me that they have canceled my appointment. I am frustrated  so I ask them when is the next available appointment they inform me a Monday which is 6 day later. I inform them that that is unacceptable and they schedule my appointment for a Thursday between 4 and 6pm. I make arrangements to take off work and the guy never shows. I called 18 times and they informed me at last that it would be at 12am. They call me at a quarter to midnight and they say it is going to take them 2 more hours to get to me. I sarcastically reply, “Where are you in Austin or something? it shouldn’t take this long!” and the tech hangs up on me. So I decide when I wake up the next day after that ordeal to cancel my services. Obviously they didn’t want my money.

 

I call DirecTV (who I prefer, but my apartments want a 500.00 deposit for satellite  and they set me up an install date. I decide to go around my apartments back and install the satellite anyway. I mean I can set the thing up on a tripod and there won’t be any attachments to the building. I schedule it for a Sunday(yesterday) when the office is closed and an evening appointment. They go to the wrong apartment complex, and tell me the next available date they have is another week from now. Well thank you for your waste of time you idiots. Those were my thoughts. So I decide to call AT&T.

Yeah, by now, I’m over this whole cable incident. I call them to set up the appointment and they tell me I have an outstanding balance and they put my order on hold. You have GOT to be kidding me. I have never had services with AT&T ever! So, today, after being transferred around the block in AT&T I unleashed my anger on some poor unsuspecting agent. It got me somewhere though. I got my activation fee waived they are coming out tomorrow, and the balance they claimed I had, he can’t find. Let’s hope they go to the correct apartment tomorrow. *Sigh* In other news I rigged my T.V. to get regular channels by placing an earring into the cable connector. Oh how I love being innovative. Judge me if you want it’s been 3 weeks and I am tired of watching paint dry on my walls.

Moving Weekend

What a week it has been. I mean there were fireworks non-stop last week. I had an unfortunate blow out with my current roommate. We could not find a way to make our situation workable. It happens, but it is best that we separate and go our separate ways. So this weekend was a moving weekend. It just feels so good to live alone again. To have peace in your household and not walk into a world of dysfunction. If you have ever watched the Roommate is was a milder version of that. Hallelujah I will celebrate with a bottle of wine when I am officially unpacked. This is the 3rd time this year that I have moved. Moving sucks. There is no way around it, but it is an awesome workout! Tomorrow, me and my workout partner will be hitting the gym at our usual 5am time and running in the evenings since it has finally cooled down.

Trip to Belize!

I have been M.I.A. I had no internet access so I couldn’t post any pictures for the remainder of my 30 day push. *tear* It’s okay I went to Belize with a friend whose family lives there. It was AMAZING!

It is a completely different way of life and the little things really do count. I got to swim in the Caribbean sea, visit a Free Zone(a place where you don’t have to pay taxes for clothes, shoes, liquor) Had awesome Belizean food, drank a delicious Michelada  and got to meet my friends family. They were so welcoming. They were so warm and one of her younger cousins and I bonded.

I want to send him things and maybe get him to visit here. I am inspired overall and I really thank my friend for allowing me to have this experience with her. She is the best friend a gal can have. I came back with a little accent only after 4 days and I got invited back. Fun stuff. Well I hope everyone is continuing to push forward with their fitness goals! I know I am!