My New Normal

 

My life has been taken over by this little person, every inch of it. From the moment I awake with you in my arms, my life is all about you. Tonight you sleep in your crib, and I make the most of it. Most times it’s me straightening up my home and I find that in every room, there are reminants of you.

In the living room I pick up mounds of baby toys and put them in their place. I straighten out the kitchen and your clean bottles are on the drying rack, and baby food is proudly on display. I go to the bathroom, where my walk-in closet is and as I pass, I see your bouncer and bath toys. In my closet is a space, designated just for you.

Our room has your  swing and your crib and your changing table. I find there are always reminders that you are in my life. The car seat in my car, the emergency diapers, car toys, and stroller are all reminders of you. I even find when I am looking in my purse, a bow, some emergency wipes and a diaper are in tow. It’s amazing to me, that you have not only emcompassed my heart, but you have encompassed my life. Your Mother has enjoyed all 8 plus months of your life and I as I have said countless times am overjoyed, privilaged and honored to spend the rest of my days with you as your Mom. I love you booger bear.

 

 

A letter to my daughter

Hello London,

You are currently 2 months old and I have to say I love you to pieces. You are the joy of my life. I never thought my heart could swell so big, I never knew I could love so big, and you, yes you young lady are the cause of it. I think back on your journey into my life, and I believe you were brought here to give me a purpose. Some of that purpose is to pour into you, all of the good qualities I hold and, all of the ones I want you to have. You will be a wonder. You will be amazing. You are truly a blessing that inspires me to do better. You are motivation. I cannot wait to show you what success is, and that the climb to it is the hardest, but most important part. I think that everyone’s life you come into, you bring happiness . I only expected you to bring joy into my life and now I see that the happiness you give me expands into others lives.  When I prayed for joy and happiness in my life, it came in the most unexpected way, you. When you 1st arrived, I was unsure of what to do. Those big pretty eyes opened, and showed me that love still exists, it is still a reality. Now I know why children enrich a persons life, I now have 1st hand experience. Daughter, I want you to know God, I want you to know faith, I want to you to know that prayer works. Your existence is the proof. I love you London P. Tucker with all of my heart. Muah.